i don't know is it common but i just miss my kid sister... she got married yesterday to a wonderful guy and i am happy for her... but at the same times there are these conficting feelings of lost and sad... i put that down to separation anxiety... even though i fully understand the whole process but i just can't help feel this way...
i got teary-eyed when my sister left the house yesterday morning, after being ushered by the groom... her "jie mui" 姐妹 sort-of laughed at me for getting teared up... i didn't mind... and at the church ceremony i felt the same way... i'm sure lots of people out there would feel the same way...
then at the reception, when her groom serenaded her... i can tell she was happy because it was her night but i can also sense that she was sad... not because of no longer being a single person but i guess of no longer being able to be consistently with US... which is only natural...
as the 大哥, i can only say i miss her even though i know she is only 10 minutes away from my house... or just a phone call away... i guess when it is only the four of us brothers and sisters there is a closeness that you cannot describe by words...
舍不得, but i understand too that this is a part of life... her happiness... and i am glad she found her knight in shinning armour...
well... i have to move on... and not feel this way... it will take a while and hopefully i can ADAPT...
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